My Battle

Today is my weigh-in and I got on the scale this morning and things aren't looking too good for me. The number on the scale was up. Last week when I got on my scale, my number was down .6 and when I went to WI at WW, it was up .6. So I really tried hard this week. Up until this past week I hadn't even been staying within my points range. I would blow it over this weekend and this weekend, I committed to staying on track and I did it. Even if I don't see the result on the scale, I need to continue on this journey and not give up. I need to focus on this week, this day. I am committing to tracking everything I eat and staying within my allotted points. I am also committing to earning at least 2 AP each day. These are my goals for this week. I can and will do this. I am so close it's ridiculous. I only have about 3 pounds to go! I need to focus my thoughts on what is right, true, good, honorable, praiseworthy.

Vacationing from the WW Plan

It's amazing how just one comment can bring revelation. On one of my groups there was a post where someone else had asked this person if he ever took a vacation from the plan. The phrase "vacation from the plan" is really sticking in my head and I feel a need to elaborate on what this means to me.

This is what I do, I get to goal then I take a vacation from the plan. I need to make tracking and staying within points range a true lifestyle change. There is no going back to my old ways. Going back to old ways will take me back to my old self and that is what I am trying to change. These bad eating habits will only lead to weight gain, diabetes and heart problems.

This plan offers enough flexibility so I can have my cake and eat it too. There is no reason for me to keep going back to eating out of control other than "I just don't feel like putting in the effort." I really need to look at the long term results. I am thinking that the potential health problems will be more work than choosing a carrot over a candy bar. Bottom line is that I need to stop taking a vacation from this plan.

The Power of Prayer, Praise & Worship

My daughter has been dealing with a cough lately. It mostly acts up at night when she goes to sleep but it doesn't calm down until about 11:30 or 12:00 at night. I, personally, like to go to sleep at around 10:00pm so needless to say, this has been affecting my sleep. It has been going on for several days now and I was starting to get a little crabby. Okay, yesterday I was really crabby and feeling depressed.

I realized I hadn't been reading my bible or praising the Lord through music or thoughts. The only verse I could think of was "Come to me all you who are burdened and weary and I will give you rest." I was so very tired that I was having a hard time going to the Lord. Yesterday, when I dropped off my youngest daughter at school I decided to put in my praise & worship music. I really needed to praise the Lord. I also had the privilege of talking with a couple of friends and I could feel this heaviness begin to lift. Then when I picked up my daughter from preschool, I asked her teacher if she would like to pray. We usually pray about once a week but hadn't for a couple of weeks. She said "yes" and we went into the prayer room. We began our prayer time with praise. We thanked God for who He is and all the great things He has blessed us with. Then I began to repent, I didn't even realize I needed to do this. I began asking for forgiveness for my attitude and not going to the Lord the way I knew to. After this prayer time, I felt the heaviness lift completely. Last night I also prayed for my daughter and asked God to calm her cough and a restful night sleep and guess what? She didn't cough at all, as a matter of fact, she is still asleep now. God is amazing and does answer prayers but we have to come to Him.

Thank you God for our restful sleep.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

More about Me

I am not sure why I started this blog.  I felt a nudging which I can only attribute to God.  For some reason He wants me to get some of these many thoughts in writing.  By the way, I am no writer and I am a person with way too many thoughts.  Oh yeah, and these thoughts are never organized.  With this blog there won’t be beautiful writings with profound ideas, it is just me and the way I see things.  My daily triumphs and struggles with God by my side.  And me trying to figure out this blog thing.

Beginnings

This is something I have been trying to post on the Weight Watchers website all day.  I guess I will post it here.

This is my first time writing a blog. I once heard someone say "if your life is worth living then it is worth writing about." So here I am. Not to mention, I really need to change something about my Weight Watchers journey because what I am doing is only sort of working. I am only five pounds away from my goal weight and only three pounds away from being free. I have been here before, a couple of times.

My challenges are tracking and staying within my point range and yes, I use
every single last weekly allowance point and then some. And I need to get some
activity in each week. I am making progress from when I restarted this process
two months ago but I think I am losing an average of a pound a month. Not good, I would like to not have to pay to go to my meetings. I could also just change my goal weight but I feel like that would be giving in. I am determined to fight this and really change some of my ways, for the better.

I know God has a plan, and maybe this is part of it, who knows.